Is my life on tv?

I just want to tell you, he died. You know? His friend, taiko? Well he died. Vomitted blood. Died at home.

Oh. I just saw him that weekend. You are not joking right? *I feel stupid saying that because I know mum doesn't joke about things like that but I had to be sure*

I had to deal with his things. He's an orphan. I hired people to deal with everything. He is only my son's friend. Oh... I am so tired. Can I disown my son? I really think I want to do that.

Mmm... That boy... is quite naive. Good boy. For all he is, whatever he was doing, he is really just a naive boy.

The life he was leading... His existence was on loan anyway. I wish I don't have this son. Is it my karma? I hope I get to sleep tonight. I've not slept much.

Mmm... Is the funeral over? How's my brother taking it?

Yes. 7 days ago. I've dealt with it. I arranged everything. Your brother? He's back in malaqa. He just runs away whenever anything happens and leave us to clean up after him. I took care of the boy's house and funeral. And his things.
You come home some time soon, ok? To see me. Life is brittle.

I have a short school vacation soon, I will go home then.

Alright, Tell you more when I see you. I don't trust our conversation over the phone.



I wanted to say something but nothing I can say is of that magnitude. I started a sentence but then I said,"Oh well, it is just work. Not like what you're going through anyway."

My brother once said, "Don't love old people too much, because they die too soon. And then you will be heart-broken." I think, I will like to change that. Don't love anyone too much because they just die.
Reminds me of "A Scanner Darkly"; which I couldn't finish because it is too close to home.

Computer Graphics: Matrices... and then some

http://www.geocities.com/SiliconValley/2151/matrices.html

Thoughts on AI...
"I = i * o * p * N
where i is input, o is output, p is the ability to plan, and N is multiple ways of doing these things.

In the realm of AI, this means,
input is multiple sensors.
output is the ability to interact with your environment.
p is the ability to see the relationship between the input and the output
N is the ability to see relationships within the relationships."


Oh oH Zeus CMD

C++ Maths definition.

C++, GL, GLUT problems & solutions

how to use: glGetError()

AARGH!!! I can't believe I am so stupid! I kept having the window crashing on me. Now I know... I forgot:

glutPostRedisplay();

at the end of keybored function. And I've spent endless nights thinking about where I went wrong!

va_list

I am right now having some problem with va_list. So as I was searching on the compilation error, I chanced upon this thread:

Oh for ........s sake, pay attention!!!!
http://faq.cprogramming.com/cgi-bin/smartfaq.cgi?answer=1044651050&id=1043284351

I used foo() because your crummy broken code didn't even have a function prototype in scope to even quote back at you. Just a bunch or random crappy lines of poorly indented code.

Sheesh!!!!!!!
no wait, that's not it
SHEESH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A bit of advice, do not under any circumstances buy a gun. You're simply not equipped to cope with it's point and click interface. Trying stuff and then asking "what does this do" just isn't going to work.


And I thought I have bad temper. Haha.

Endianness in computer programming... I remember this... Ok! RECAP!


glutMouseFunc - wheel

Ok. Just as I thought. Mouse scroll with GLUT under MacOsX does not work. See here.
So I've decided to fore go the use of wheel and improvise with mouse x,y... Maybe I can use 2 buttons click for scale function.


GLUT README.

GL_LINES for ground grid: There's no precedence for vertex if you're using GL_LINES. The vector drawn will still look the same either way.

Specific OpenGL sites for...

mouse function:-

rotate: glRotate
translate: glTranslate
zoom:

samples eer... aaah...

Bite bite bite

In case some people are wondering, Chio-Bu site is taking a long sabbatical. Very, very long.

I don't appear stress. I don't even think I am stressed.

But somehow, I've bitten my nails down to nothing and the skin around them's bleeding. My lips are bleeding too even though I am sure I am not consciously biting them. Ouch!

Oh... I just threw up. I couldn't hold my food down.

New notebook bag for all the junk.

As a lazy vain person, I will like the perfect pretty bag that can fit all my junk.

So I searched around after seeing Andy's huge ass red Crumpler (by the way, is very good looking and functional but just so common). Andy blames the need for the gigantic bag to our company notebook. I agree!

This site cracks me up "Laptop cases are no longer simply about getting your laptop from one place to another; you can do that with a plastic grocery bag." I agree!

This site has interesting list! Oh Oh and that Pantagonia is so beautiful!

Anyways, I've decided that Timbuk2 is prettier but I will need to go to Apple store to check out STM, Booq, Chrome and the likes.

But I am so in love with the functionalities from Axio's Beatbox bag. Perfect for my plan of 2 notebooks. But I imagine I will topple over backwards (if it comes with any sling at all, which it doesn't).

I want a messenger anyways because my old notebook bagpack scratched my armpits till they sore.

Now how do I find the time to go shop for my perfect notebook bag?

Note: This slimplug is absolutely brilliant! Too bad mac can't have it.

EDIT: Phew! I went ahead and bought the Crumpler Harry Hoard in red. Why? It will fit all my junk and most probably protect my macbook. And then if I don't have other crap, I can fit 2 notebooks in. Cool! But I've gotta do something about the colour. Add fabric on it or something. It looks too... hygienic.
Woohooo! Spent more than an hour "asianificating" the bag. Now I am in love with it!
I was at Fall Factor in Alexandria Village. I must say Chrome messenger's so functional and clever. The seat belt thingie is really something. But I sorta think that I look like a turtle with the bag on my back. So eer... nopey.

When I just can't seems to understand polygon drawing

I've been scratching my face (yes, when other people're confused, they scratch their head. I know, but I scratch my face), trying to figure out a way to draw my model at least in mesh or polygon. But I'm still stuck.

I wonder if I am supposed to use the gl primitives or glu. Grr... It's been bothering me and I can't even eat due to this obsession.

Oh wait. Somebody is talking about polygon tessellation. Polygon what? Constellation? Castration? Eh?

Wikipedia:
A tessellation or tiling of the plane is a collection of plane figures that fills the plane with no overlaps and no gaps.

In the subject of computer graphics, tessellation techniques are often used to manage datasets of polygons and divide them into suitable structures for rendering. Normally, at least for real-time rendering, the data is tessellated into triangles, which is sometimes referred to as triangulation. In computer-aided design, arbitrary 3D shapes are often too complicated to analyze directly. So they are divided (tessellated) into a mesh of small, easy-to-analyze pieces -- usually either irregular tetrahedrons, or irregular hexahedrons. The mesh is used for finite element analysis. Some geodesic domes are designed by tessellating the sphere with triangles that are as close to equilateral triangles as possible.

Ok.... I sort of think I understand?


These days, I use my lunch hour for reading. In no time, I will be skinny again! Whee.


Hai... On another note, my faculty is going to use me as the face of Computer Engineering. Har? What? Like school mascot? Ya. My face will be on national newspaper! Crap. I hope it's at page 176. Yep the second edition that didn't get to print. Now everybody will know I am in grad school.

What I think of grad school in the first 3 weeks

My first thoughts were:
I must be mad! Why did I choose this?

What am I majoring in? Virtual Reality. Huh? Yes. Quite mad, I know. But I was extremely bored at work and I've nothing much to occupy my mind with.
I didn't want to major in embedded systems or bioinformatics... which were the other two choices. So I chose this. Not much from Computer Engineering faculty really.

I still think I am mad and I hope as hell I don't drop out or worse; get kick out because I don't meet the GPA.

But I am starting to enjoy it a little.
The workload is absolutely inhuman. Oh I hope I make it. I must!

NOTE:
Wheeeeeeeeeeeee! My 3D model loads!!! Well, not really. The vertices' plotted but but they look like an explosion now. Let's see....

Interesting Unix related reference

http://unix.t-a-y-l-o-r.com/index.html

On 3D mesh and polygon:

http://research.microsoft.com/displayarticle.aspx?id=690

OpenGL with some breakthrough!

I've been staring at the beginner's opengl codes. Starting to make more sense to me now.

Yay! Will write the breakdown notes later.

This is great quick reference:

http://wiki.vislab.usyd.edu.au/moin.cgi/Multimedia_Computing_and_Processing/Tutorials/OpenGL_Basics


http://www.ace.uwaterloo.ca/~liho/homepage/opengl.html

Samsung Z800 modem with Macbook- Leopard

It works like a charm!

No driver installation.

System Preferences --> Network:

Samsung CDMA Technologies.

The settings:


Click on Advance to set the:
Vendor: Samsung
APN: internet

**these settings only work for Singtel BOM users.

When you're an idiot at XCode and GLUT

OneSadCookie: Xcode/GLUT Tutorial

GL Overview:
http://www.freepascal.org/docs-html/packages/opengl/gl/index.html

Some theory & maths:
http://www.meandmark.com/articles.html

OTHER UNIS:
http://www.csse.monash.edu.au/~jonmc/CSE3313/Resources/SampleCode/index.html

BEGINNERS:
http://www.nextdawn.nl/

http://www.videotutorialsrock.com/

http://www.codesampler.com/oglsrc.htm

http://www.lighthouse3d.com/opengl/tutorials.shtml

SAMPLE:

http://www.opengl.org/code/

WIKI:
http://wiki.gamedev.net/index.php/Main_Page


GLUI for Mac OS X:
http://lukecyca.com/2007/02/14/glui-23-framework-for-mac-os-x/

As I stare at the gl codes

You're taunting me, aren't you?

The habit is... if you stare at something long enough, it will make sense to you. I believe I've stared at this piece of code long enough. And yet I still don't understand it.

Good luck!

MSDN or ADC

Let's see...

XKCD

Funny comics...

http://xkcd.com/456/

Randy Paush Lecture

I'm apprehensive.
I am not sure what I've got myself into. I am going to start my classes soon. I don't know what to expect... And then I saw this.




Now, I am ready. Oh I am so ready!

Sucker for: guy reading sci-fi

We were all packing into the lift, leaving for lunch when the book caught my attention before the person reading it did.

It's a sci-fi book. And he was intently reading it. I wanted so much to see the the title without appearing too nosy but it was hard.

Suddenly this guy looks so attractive to me that I can't help staring at... his book.

What is he reading??? I must find out!

Wearing: Masks

Is the bane of adulthood.

As much as we want to be ourselves, we cannot avoid this. To be successful at work, we must be capable of it.

Smile at the colleague when in actual fact, you feel like punching his face out ala Fight Club.

Nod in agreement when you don't agree because you know that guy doesn't know the answer to your question but didn't want to look stupid and decided to tell you some crap.

Say things like, "Oh! I am so glad to see you! How are you?" ecstatically, when in actual fact you were thinking in your head,"Aren't you the bitch from my past?".

Keep a poker face when the manager is saying things so stupid you want to laugh loudly but can't.

Listen to your colleagues; smile, nod, say "Oh, I didn't know that" "Really?" but actually, you are hearing nothing.

Sit in useless meetings exactly as Dilbert will describe it because you're no longer surrounded by cool colleagues. These bunch are just idiots. But what can you do?



I miss the days when we would be so honest with our own colleagues. Our brains' constantly working.
When all we ever slough for, is knowledge. The excitement of learning, and sharing and debating...
When everyday is war. Out in the battlefield. Making decisions based on very little, because you have people depending on you. Do or die trying.

Oh... I can't die a rusty death here... It's not right.
Not fair. Not fair at all!

Becareful: Because I am older now

I think... I have to be more careful these days... I am not a kid anymore.

These are the things I've always maintained:

1. Never like your dance partner. Very gross.
2. Never have anything more than professional relationship with your colleagues.


Now I think I have to add more:

3. Be careful of your male colleagues.


So horribly nasty! Only this year. Strange year...
If it happens again, then the problem definitely lies with me. Gotta do something about that!

Swimming: in my own bubble of thoughts

I believe a lot is happening at work, in other people's lives who are subtly connected to me. But here I am in my own thoughts, in my own world.

I've been talking to people I love; who're absolutely honest with me. And among these of old, sparkling honest friends I lie since May. Oblivious to the world around me.

For all I know, I am 16 again. I am 18 again. Meeting them for the first time. Studying together. Talking freely because nobody can hold me against my words.

As intelligent and logical as we all might be, in the end we are just human. We get emotional. There is always the battle between logic and emotion. And right now, I choose emotions. Emotions have been like a drug to me. Giving me a certain high that I don't want to drop from as yet.

I indulge in myself. My emotions, my words, my thoughts, my insanity.